How does it feel?

How does it feel to have the same routine everyday? You wake up, go out, come back home and repeat the same until you lost track of the last time you were happy with yourself?

You have a phone but no one calls, there’s internet but no one texts, there’s YouTube and you watch either motivational videos or something that makes you laugh; you walk around people, talking what you seldom mean trying to create an image for yourself rarely realizing nobody cares, you gulp down food but not actually eat like you should, when you laugh but it doesn’t come from the heart, each time you cry, you feel shallow inside and wonder whatever happened to your smile. How does it feel?

You’re lost in thoughts riding your bike, the only thing remarkable and satisfying is sleep, when whatever you wear doesn’t make you look good because you think you’re shit, when you fail to impress people because you’re not impressed with yourself, when you’re overachiever yet an underperformer, you go to work not because you want to but because you should, how does it feel?

How does it feel when you’re alive but there’s no life to you?

Have you ever thought of what you’re doing to yourself?

Look around, look at the world;

Nobody gives a shit about you.

About time you did.