Light and pain.

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You say I’m in darkness

And I need light?

But my words

Are my saviour

And pain makes me write.

Published by Bharath Upendra

I'm that cynical, sarcastic, hypocritical self loathing masochist you rarely cross paths with.

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74 thoughts on “Light and pain.”

  1. It was nice chatting … and whatta post we have chatted on!!- “Light”and “Pain” 🙂 just read the conversation back and gosh i have written such long replies!! :-)) see you around Bharath, in another post when i dig your blog further :-))

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          1. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️nah…. not a popular one.. in my dreams only!!!
            But you giving me ideas now.. being anonymous I can pretend to be anyone …

            anonymous because I want to try, not being judged .. want to try being unfiltered, raw… which I cannot do being the people pleaser that I am 🙆‍♀️

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            2. I struggle to be like that Bharath …I deleted my FB account .. if I share something there people ping me asking if I am alright … what led me to write it Etc etc…
              you know, I am the good sweet girl next door, who tries her best to not hurt anybody! By her words or deeds.. struggles to say NO to people ..
              so when unknown .. I felt it’s safer

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            3. I was the same just about a few years ago.
              I’m trying to be better now, learning to say No. I won’t go against you for being anonymous but it’s better if people know who you are deep inside. It’s badass.

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            4. Learning to say No is almost becoming a necessity for me! Will get there slowly.

              Badass eh ? 😎 Hmm let’s see ..

              For example, I have a drafted a post on sister-in-law.. more so on different mentalities … we have a nice rapport but I learn from her what not to do. I can never write that post with my name on. So being HS .. I can .. without a second thought ☺️
              I tried googling my name .. it leads to my linked in profile .. so anonymous was safe ☺️

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            6. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
              Forget about me …..
              “Bharath Upendra” first hit is that famous Kannada actor Upendra .. who is similar to you in being cynical, so may be google got confused

              Second hit onwards:
              https://ridiculousbharath.wordpress.com/author/bharath10291/

              https://www.instagram.com/Bharath_upendra/?hl=en

              Dude, you are so popular eh? 😎kewl! 😉I’m chatting with a celebrity

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            8. You can’t deny .. I saw it myself on google.. 😎😅

              I worked for about 6 years as a QA engineer .. then a break, then a freelancer …
              alongside my own business in food industry .. I used to run a cake shop franchise .. closed that down! Invested in manufacturing and distribution of bakery products ..
              thanks to corona my business and freelance opportunities are all time low! So a full time mommy now 🤷‍♀️😊

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            10. I can never do that.. for real! 😄
              Donno Bharath.. it was all too quick .. we got partners with similar ideas and it worked well thankfully .. oh my so many things crop up in my head .. I saw my father go for a loss in hotel business and as a five year old onky I decided I will never be a business person 😂 look at me!
              And about my work as QA .. it’s still a void .. both my parents and in-laws worked till retirement and my parents struggled to make ends meet. Coming from that kinda background, and finishing a professional degree, getting my dream job.. and quitting it to be a full time mother and now unable to go back ….. it’s a struggle .. 🙆‍♀️which my mind goes through!

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            11. I can see so many things happening all at once here. I’ve been there, from having sufficient to having nothing at all. I never had a dream job because I was never good at studies. I’m glad to have known you, at least whatever part you show us, thank you for existing.

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            12. Really?
              At age 4, my grandpa was called “sahukaru” translates to rich guy .. two years later was a pauper.. but still people called him sahukar only 😂irony! Or may be respect 🙂

              You really remind me of my brother .. I was a topper and he flunked most of the times.. so he got a inferiority complex in childhood .. I was so helpless ..
              my only aim was to land in a job n support my family .. that’s it .. quick money .. was really good in biology .. just missed a free seat for doc … couldn’t afford either! General Category.. no freebies either … So chose engineering.. quick money you see 🤷‍♀️

              This is me .. just a different name .. it’s been long anyone thanked me for being worth while of existence .. 😇

              You must be busy with work .. I’m pouring out long messages 🙆‍♀️☺️I wonder if any users above have their notifications on for comments .. they would be fed up 😂

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            13. I think the name stays, ma’am. People don’t forget (or forgive) what you were even if the tables are turned.
              I don’t like toppers. Hahah!
              Well you did well.
              Oh please, suit yourself. Nobody has notifications on for comments. 😂

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            14. Yes Bharath, the name stays.. absolutely … even 20 years later.. a person from the village met him near my house here in the city … a small single bedroom house, one among the 12 houses in the same building .. a single bulb was enough to light up the full house.. a square divided by four walls forming the kitchen, bath, hall n room, with a light socket in the center .. you can imagine? and he said “savkarrre, how are you” 😂😂 .., yes the name stays!

              Actually I too don’t like toppers .. they aren’t accustomed to failure 😂my brother has learnt a lot more life lessons than me .. I bet!

              I hope!!🤞😂 again this is me.. though I love this conversation.. I feel I may be disturbing others unnecessarily.. I shouldn’t care much right? Difficult here 😅

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            15. I know what being poor is, ma’am. I’ve seen enough to say I know how it felt for you back then. You must’ve worked hard to top every time. I wish I was half the man you are right now. But this is me.
              I hope your brother is doing well.
              You aren’t disturbing.

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            16. I dint want my mom to take a loan. She was the primary earner.. a microbiologist who helped research students.. so all I could do was save some money

              Each one is unique and each one does the best they can .. life takes its own turns and each one has a destiny .. whatever you are doing, I can never believe it’s not your best .., in your circumstances, without comparing to any other, as you yourself, you will be giving your best ..

              My brother is ok now .. struggled initially .. but doing ok now 🙏., he is very creative.. writes very well .. but getting an earning being creative is a tough path 🤷‍♀️

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            8. Possible isn’t it … probability is 0.000000000…..1 but not 0

              With the number of people I’ve written about, and the number of people I know and my karma taken into account, the probability keeps increasing

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  7. These lines feel like they can fit into some lonely vibes wala song. 😃 So musical and melodious! Achha likhe ho ye wala ekdum. 👊

    Ye tagline me bhi daal sakte, “words are my savior and pain makes me write”. 😼

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  8. Pain is part of the bumps of life, words come from your heart, Light is written on the Hearts of Man. Some people just don’t realize it yet. You are a very smart young man. Strong words speak truth.

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      1. It is never, ever to late. Trust me, I speak from experience. Wisdom comes from experience, experience comes from trials and bumps in the road. We are to learn from them. Trust me on that one also. I have had plenty of trials, and probably more to come.

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          1. Well, this is a link to the how it all begin. A snippet of history from my childhood. And as bad as it might sound. The one thing my friend Ron told me, is there are others out there who had it even worse than I did. Those memories haunted me right up until last year. When I found my way out of the darkness of the world. But what I gained from it all is strength, enough to help me get through what ever comes next. https://mychristianity2017.blog/. If you ever have questions, you can write to me from the contact form. I am not a doctor, I am not a religion. I only speak from experience.

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        2. We are never perfect. We should however strive for 100 per cent. As a Wise man once said, “Then, I would tell you, that is not good enough. You never stop trying, life is full of mistakes. If we did not have mistakes we would not learn”. Failure is not an option is what he told me. And I tell anyone before me.

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            1. I hear you, it does not have to be the finale. The guilt I put on myself for the trials in my life is what crushed me. No one ever said it was not my fault. Now I realize it wasn’t my fault. I didn’t know at the time, you don’t see it all when you are in the middle of trials. You will come out of it, stronger than before. Talking helps, writing helps.

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            3. Because you will learn from it, that is the whole process of life. I made the mistake once, I made similar mistakes again. Because I listened to the lies around me, saying how I should act, how I should live. It took me a long time to see my mistakes. Hopefully my stories and other peoples experiences will help those to see the light. It doesn’t mean you won’t make more mistakes. but you will grow in strength and wisdom to understand it better.

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