“To travel the spiritual path, you must begin searching for a light within yourself. A desire to learn, a desire to conquer self. What I see in you is darkness; walk towards light. Embrace the reality, the world has more to offer. The lord has a lot in store for you. ”
And he turned around for a glass of water.
“I prefer neither light nor darkness. I wish to dwell in the twilight. I don’t believe in the lord, I don’t want to wait for the light, let alone search for it. ” I saw him looking at me as sympathy donned his face.
“Why do you choose to be indifferent? Isn’t it better to pick one side and stay true to it?”
This question always irked me.
“I hate light, It shows me what I’m scared of; I hate the dark, it hides what I’m supposed to see. When nothing stays true to us and itself, why pick a side? When someone sees it all and refuses to show, why believe in him? I choose to stay in the grey and know things as they come instead of blind belief. ”
“What you say is flawed. ”
“Everything is inherently flawed. The devil lies in the details. ”
“Nothing can save you. ”
“Keep believing and you can’t even save yourself. “