Deserving.


What is life? The mere fleeting days of body and mind that are in a constant state of decay. I bet we all notice the chaos around us but live on arranging things in our lives. It’s just an arrangement, you see, the change in order of things, that’s all. The chaos is constant. You can’t get things done in a particular way. No matter how much we try to control what happens to us; there’s nothing we can do about how things can happen to us.

I’d love to believe in fate and karma but nah, I’d pass. The life we have is a series of actions and consequences which we have no authority over. What I do now has direct and indirect impact over people around me. We’re only in charge of what we do but not what can happen. Look in the mirror, man, what do you see? That’s your body changing itself according to the situations, actions, reactions, places, touch, friction, climate and mind. There are new marks, prospective wrinkles and unnecessary flab that goes unnoticed. The only thing you can’t look at is your mind. Do you realise what you’re doing to it??

Thoughts may not get you what you want, wishes may never be granted. Don’t believe in “universe conspires”. No! Universe doesn’t give a rat’s ass about you. Even universe is run by constant, unpredictable and uncontrollable events. We’re mere specks of dust in an ever expanding universe of a billion visible galaxies. While we float around in this minute rock called earth, ageing every day, worrying about shit, there are things that happen around us at the same time, things that are so grand, things that are barely noticed.

We’re so selfish, aren’t we? Thinking everything is about us, imagining everything that slips away is something we never deserved and better things are coming. No! Nothing better is coming your way, believe me. Nobody deserves anything, my friend. Do you think those innocent people in Syria deserve to die ? Do you think people who kill deserve the kill? Get over that over inflated ego of yours and see things for what they are. We’re dying. Don’t you see? Everybody is dying little by little everyday and all you have in mind is “I don’t deserve this shit but I deserve that?”

Well, bless your delusional mind and ass.

We’re born into circumstances and we get things depending on how we and others react to different scenarios that are not written beforehand. There’s no fate. Nothing is written in the stars. They’re so fucking far from each other, they can’t even write on themselves. Every star you see in the night sky is a “white dwarf ” which is dying too.

Get over yourself.

Entropy is everywhere.

You don’t deserve shit.

12 Comments Add yours

  1. I loved this one, Chinnakutti.
    We, humans, are only concerned about the things that happen closer to us. We don’t even care about what happens in our own society unless it has a direct impact on us. Pinneya solar system! thenga!
    A friend told me today that it’s the little things that matter. Let me reply to her that nothing matters 😀 If she gets angry, I will tell it’s you who taught me this.

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    1. Haha please tell her my name and that I told you nothing matters. 😃 I wanna know what she says.

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      1. She asked me to stay away from toxic people. Bye 4 everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, Bharath

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        1. Byeeeee aswathyyyyyyyyyy

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  2. Nour R. says:

    Well dayum who hurt you that bad?

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    1. Let’s just say, everyone.

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  3. Mermaid says:

    So well written.

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    1. Thank you, you little monster. 🙂

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  4. Maina Ann says:

    ✨Great insight

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  5. jim- says:

    Best to enjoy this life and explore it. One day you’ll realize that and regret it when it’s too late. But it’s never too late to regret, right? Seem like a wise young lad once said that…

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    1. That’s what I tell everyone but nobody listens. Who was that young lad again?😂

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