“Your forgot to turn the lights off,” you’d scream, making it a big deal. But checking it twice, isn’t a big deal either. So, I made sure all the switches are off, grabbed my keys and locked the door.
I played your favourite song in the car. I love it but I won’t admit it. That book you bought for me? It ain’t trash either.
I saw a kid selling cotton candy further up the road. Here, I bought three, each in different colour. You’d love it. The colour of your tongue after you eat it! Disco lights!
And now I’m finally here, suited up, holding cotton candies. It feels like a first date all over again. Come home with me, will you? I know you won’t talk, but I will.
Remember how the sight of a spider scared you to death? There’s one crawling right over you and you don’t even flinch. Have I told you the house is infested by rodents? I might’ve. Yeah we’ll take care of it. Your clothes are back from laundry, I folded them up and put them back in the wardrobe just the way you like it. The perfume you suggested; yeah the one I didn’t like, it actually smells great, Y’know… it’s great.
Oh! The pancakes were out of shape but edible. You missed it as usual. Funny I didn’t know I could cook before, it’s like it’s always been there like a hidden superpower yet to be harnessed. I don’t skip dinner as Promised. You like these flowers, don’t you? I hate them. You know. Does that even matter?
I know you’re still laughing at the rice that I burnt last week. Shut up now. Enough. The days are fleeting by like they always do but there’s one thing that keeps me awake at night. How could you love someone like me? What did you hold on to? I don’t understand.
When I don’t have you to look at, there’s nothing else to look forward to. At least you’re resting in peace. I can’t rest, neither am I in peace.
Written in collaboration with her majesty, Shreya.