Rumination


From torn sketches to lost books, it has been a tedious ride. I remember the wind in my hair and sunlight on my face as I rode my bicycle to school and the tears that ran down my cheeks because of broken things. I’ve travelled miles of years from dusk till dawn, bound to people and lines that were drawn. Freedom, a dream that once was still remains more far fetched than ever.

The letters I’ve written failed to fly; the birds that carried had no wings but mouths yet I looked up at the clouds with eyes filled with hope. The water that washed my skin refused to take my sins; the food I ate looked tastier in the plate. Thoughts remained thoughts and actions killed them; thoughts that survived massacred the will. There is no refuge when a war rages inside, I look in the mirror and sympathy dies.

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  1. RAK says:

    Wow, your writings are so beautiful and deep! I love it!

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  2. Anisha says:

    I’ve thought about thoughts killing actions, but just realised actions kill thoughts too.

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  3. Chetna says:

    Bharath!! I don’t know for how many times I have read this already. Each time your lines strike hard. I could relate but still not relate to it.

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    1. I like that, being able to relate and not relate at the same time.

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  4. Harsh says:

    Thoughts remained thoughts and actions killed them; thoughts that survived massacred the will.

    I will save this somewhere.

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  5. Nathi says:

    “There is no refuge when a war rages inside, I look in the mirror and sympathy dies.”

    You always seem to end your posts with a bang🤩

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      1. Nathi says:

        You’re welcome, brother 🙂

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  6. Oof! Another beautiful post!

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  7. dessertflower5 says:

    Wow. I admire this. I feel you have written down my thoughts so perfectly. It’s deep emotional peice

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    1. Thanks Raghava Sri. 🙂

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      1. dessertflower5 says:

        your welcome. keep up the good work

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  8. “The letters I’ve written failed to fly; the birds that carried had no wings but mouths yet I looked up at the clouds with eyes filled with hope. ” “There is no refuge when a war rages inside,” WOW! MOST wonderful. i was a student of Agriculture. We were Para-Vets if there was this category available and trust me it was hard work tying the wounded animals and inject them. The Hindi word that immediately came to me reading your title जुगाली {jugali} = RUMINATION. And when I read thru It was a wrong parallel, I knew immediately. It was Reflection perhaps, a rare rambling of thoughts going back and forth, undigested, semi-digested and some digested with trouble. It made good reading, trust me and I am not one to appreciate easily. My compliments and thanks for sharing. Regards. Jay

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    1. You were a student of Agriculture? That’s nice. My grandpa is a retired veterinarian and I’ve seen him treating animals. I was around wounded animals too. Maybe you were referring to the cow chewing on something but here, I meant deep and continuous pondering. Thank you for your time. 🙂

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  9. There is no refuge when a war rages inside.. This post hits on a different level.
    Between what was in the letter?

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    1. Thanks Yeshu. It was empty.

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      1. Empty letters! Only you could think this.

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        1. Messages are misinterpreted. I’ve got a blank space. 😂

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          1. Lol. Thats clever. Like feel free to fill whatever you want. Don’t bother me😂

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            1. Not sending my letters to you. They’re for myself alone.

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            2. Your birds don’t have wings to carry the letters also.

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            3. I said they have mouths. They gossip.

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            4. Then keep the letter, send me the bird.

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            5. Why? Cannibal instincts??

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            6. Gossip monger 😂😂

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            7. Big time. Getting bored at home. Need entertainment 😂

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            8. Laze around and have fun

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            9. Thats what I have been doing for sometime, its no fun now. 🥺
              You have given me something to look for. I want gossip now😁

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            10. Haha what do you want to gossip about??

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            11. Anything apart from Covid, SSR and that Rashi wala song 😂

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            12. What’s Rashi wala song??

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            13. You dont know Rashi wala song… Rasodee me kaun tha???

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            14. Acha wo! Yeah I saw the video a few days ago.

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            15. Ha wo. Finally I have got that song out of mind. Peace✌️

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            16. It didn’t affect me much. I have other shit going on. 😂

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  10. Nawazish says:

    This soooo strong and deep. The last few lines are heartfelt!💔💔

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    1. Aww so formal Nawazish 😂

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      1. Nawazish says:

        This was really good. Didn’t want to mess!🙄

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        1. okay thank you then

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          1. Nawazish says:

            Okay welcome then

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            1. That’s more like it

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