Dear you


If I took your name, would it save me from shame? My sins laugh at me when I kneel and pray. When convictions suppress conscience, the only solace is faith. Tell me, what sanctifies you? I try to understand and fail. Sometimes, existence is belief and I choose to disbelieve. My wrong questions, their right answers justify your silence, magnify your absence and make me doubt your presence.

I wished, I hoped, I prayed; I’ve asked, I’ve knocked and looked for you, in pain, in vain with guilt and blame. What have I received? What was I shown? What do I believe? Your doors are closed. There is no evil, now I see; there is no good, it’s futile to seek. Whatever it is, rests with me.

Save your grace, I’ll be waiting, if you exist; come meet me in my grave.

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  1. Chetna says:

    What’s that thing about wrong question and right answers??
    How would you know if He comes to meet you in your grave?

    Hyy Bharath! Kem cho?😅

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    1. In a conservative society, whatever I ask is condemned, what they answer is always right. He can’t come and I won’t know. That’s the point.
      Sab majama. Aap batao!

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      1. Chetna says:

        Yeah! I agree.
        Ykw.. I think that if He exists then does He makes any difference between who believes in him and who don’t!
        Every line of this post resonates in my mind.
        Me is fine too.😅

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  2. Anushk@ says:

    One of my favorite again 🥺
    Bharathhhhhh!!! Why do you do this???
    I’m falling for your writing even more!!!!!

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    1. Anushka kaha haiiiiiii

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  3. HappySoul says:

    Woah!!!! Wow!!! ‘If you exist meet me in the grave!! ‘Bharath this is so strong!! I think you should mark these posts in another folder. We can read more and get inspired to write more

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    1. Anushk@ says:

      Hey HappySoul
      I agree with you…he writes so good🥺
      He should do this for us!!!

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    2. I can’t keep track of what I’ve written, I even forget them the moment I post sometimes. I’ll see if I can do that. Thank you ma’am.

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  4. Silver Stone says:

    Woah, this was quite the catch! Loved that rhyming in between each stanza, by the way.
    Hey, have you ever thought of making a compilation of your best works?

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    1. Thank you. I did and I’m working on it.

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      1. Silver Stone says:

        Anytime.
        Can’t wait to see it!

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  5. 🥺
    And this is why you are an Atheist?!
    🥺

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  6. This is unbeatable. I mean who can rhyme in between stanzas, well Bharath can.

    Post is good no doubt, but rhymes in between amaze me more!

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    1. Thank you Rashmi 🙂

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  7. Is grave the only option? What about the scrunity which lies within the soul? It does not need a grave when dead already. It stays inside a walking-dead person. Don’t you think? Grave can only rest what can be burnt and faltered, what’s broken and burnt deep down can procure nothimg from ‘The Grave.’
    I don’t even know what I’m writing lol.

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      1. Something I talk to instead of walls.

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  8. Ohh my God! But wait, you don’t believe in God, right? That was what this whole thing was about. Faith can be a fickle thing and not many can justify it. Well written, Bharath. But things keep getting darker. How are you?

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    1. I don’t. This is me questioning the existence. I’m as dark as ever, Shweta. How’re you?

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      1. Dark as ever? So your mind’s still cloudy?
        I’m fine, Bharath

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        1. Yep. The clouds are darker this time.

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          1. Oh that’s sad 😦

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            1. I’m hoping it doesn’t rain

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  9. Lia says:

    Stunning!!! ❤︎💛🌻

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  10. In pain, in vain with guilt and blame. Wow. There are so many lines and words and feelings in this post which I loved.

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    1. Thank you Yeshu 🙂

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  11. Nawazish says:

    “Tell me, what sanctifies you? Save your grace, I’ll be waiting, if you exist; come meet me in my grave.” These lines are just wow! ❤ It is so powerful and impactful! This is one of my favorite work of yours!🤗
    Having a faith is good though!
    “Tera hi main ik saaya
    Tune mujhko banaya
    Main to jag ko naa bhaya
    Tune gale se lagaya”🤭🤭

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    1. Thank you Nawazish. 🙂
      “Me nahi maanta in Sab me”

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      1. Nawazish says:

        I know! I wrote the song aivayyi! I remembered it😀😀🤓

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        1. Hahaha you can do anything

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  12. Nathi says:

    Woah….such powerful words! You should include this in your collection, brother!

    “Save your grace, I’ll be waiting, if you exist; come meet me in my grave.”

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    1. Aye aye, cap’n ! I missed you.

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        1. You know everything.

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