I just don’t understand how the world works at all. I was jobless but happy then I was working and miserable. It’s only after I got out of college that I was interested in learning. I am surrounded yet I’m alone, they sat with me, ate with me and lived with me but not once have I felt I belonged. What I want morphs into something else, what I need moves farther. The more I thought, the dumber I felt; the more I spoke, the smarter they said I am. Sometimes it’s like I eat to survive, drink to piss and bathe to avoid stink.