I welcome denial.


I looked for a friend, I found him in me. I lived in a world that breathed through me. I looked for myself and suddenly, the world seemed too big.

Perspectives betray convictions as my world widens, one person at a time. I walked through words and intentions and neither made any sense. In the eyes of people, is an abyss into which I fix my gaze and it didn’t seem to look back at me. I don’t even know what monsters are anymore.

The wanderer sits in his room, scared to venture into the wild. The world began to shrink as people got to know each other. There’s no place to go for the vagabond, whatever’s left is plagued by deception. Wilderness isn’t in the woods either, I’m afraid. We chose to ignore the fact that we’re animals because animals don’t classify us as humans.

I stopped looking for myself because I don’t exist. Existence lies in belief, belief draws power from convictions and convictions shape perceptions.

I refuse to believe in this existence.

I welcome denial.

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  1. amanita says:

    Hahaha, I just thought of some scientific study that proved that cats keep humans for cats (though for very clumsy and noisy ones)😄

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    1. Is that why cars are so coveted?

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      1. amanita says:

        Could be one of the reasons🙂A fun fact about Germany is that society is split in 2 main groups, the cat lovers and the dog lovers. Cat lovers love an independent but not dangerous animal in their home, dog lovers prefer a possibly dangerous but subordinate animal. Says a lot about the animal owners’ characters, doesn’t it?😄By the way, dogs don’t take humans for dogs, the study says. But dogs have been bred by humans for 8 000 years, cats only for 170 years, that makes a difference too.

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        1. I am the third kind. I don’t like having pets, neither independent nor dependent. Where do I fit??

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          1. amanita says:

            Depends on which animal you’d prefer IF you chose a pet🙂

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  2. Speechless again, Sir you should be a philosopher. Life seems to have taught you a lot.

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    1. I don’t wanna be anything. I want to be nothing.
      Thank you though Rashmi.

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      1. amanita says:

        You want to be nothing? O bro, you want far too much😄

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        1. Why’s that too much? It’s the bare minimum.

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          1. amanita says:

            Allright, let’s make a fancy dress party. You show up completely naked as “Nothing”, and I wear tons of blingbling and shove a pushcart full of shopping stuff and fly a drone over my head and am “Everything”😄

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            1. I will but am I getting paid for this??😃

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            2. amanita says:

              We’d put it on Youtube and become influencers🙂🙃

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            3. Bad idea. Won’t work like that. Cash upfront.

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            4. amanita says:

              You want to be nothing and ask for cash? 😉

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            5. Nothing is expensive.
              Like the great reset, you’ll own nothing and be happy.

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  3. I have no words. 😑
    This is gorgeous! Mehn!🙄😂🤩🤩🤩

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    1. Thank you so much kiddo 😃

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  4. Anushk@ says:

    How do you write so goooooooood🤨🤨

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    1. I wonder the same Anushka!🤔🤨

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      1. Enough, both of you.

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    2. Because I follow great writers like you

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  5. akshita1776 says:

    The first paragraph is so so sooooooo good. What do I even say? Its beyond good🤩

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    1. You flatter me, Akshita. Thank you so much.

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  6. Nawazish says:

    Self obsessed insaan. Suffering from existential crises?

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