Insides. -collaboration

A white light takes over the night; I am as cold and dead inside. Shrouded in darkness, I lay and stare at the starless sky, gazing into the past, lost in the dwindling moments. I lose myself for the first time; don’t know what peace feels like, it’s been a while. A fog descends from…

Sins

Books ain’t holy, lies ain’t ugly, oh! Have I told you? The truth ain’t pretty. I’d look your god in the eye, I’m telling you, faith is a crime that’s petty. You think there’s life after life and no death in the afterlife; what do you look for? The end of darkness? A sign of…

Goodness!

I’ve always imagined myself to be good but when I realised the expanse of ‘good’, it had become more evil than it’s supposed to be; The nonexistence of existing convictions left a void that no fabricated morals could fill. A restless search for meaning that began with a disquiet in my heart left me stranded…

Mercy

I swear to you I’m lying, it’s true. I could’ve said it, I could’ve killed you and you’d have no clue. Bare handed, I stand before you, all I have are my words, they’re naked and few; they burn through your soul, fire in the hole! I know my way around and I shall break…

A way home.

Do you see the world upside down as you tread across the field of crystal thorns? The warm scarlet skies break down into crimson rain, bathing you, washing the sins from off your skin. Look at the black meadows you walk through; the wind carries a morbid perfume, think about the end, wanderer, while you…

Unrelated.

Life sometimes gets so hopeless that there’s nothing else one can do but laugh and Tears don’t taste good anymore. Emotions have abandoned me a long time ago, these are the days of apathy. Crises give meaning to existence. My soul encompasses the universe and scars are galaxies with stories hidden in plain sight. There…

The walls have nothing to hide. They don’t have anything to show either. I can’t see my hands but I know I’m looking at them. It’s warm in here, unlike the coldness they often attribute it to. Sweat wets my clothes and I lay there motionless on the ground. What’s there to look for here?…

To my muse.

It saddens me.You were here looking at me, smiling; I open my eyes to darkness that surrounds me. The same darkness brings you back again when I close my eyes and I’m beguiled. Dreams are prisons and memories are torments; yet we surrender. Wilfully. The only answer I can give to any question that has…

Black.

It’s dark. Pitch black. Looking around, I see darkness moving within itself. I don’t hear a thing. There’s thunder and lightning but I don’t hear a thing. I’m just not paying attention so I don’t hear shit. When you spend enough time in the quiet, you’ll notice the silence speaks. It has a voice of…

This darkness

I rubbed my finger against the wall and it turned black like my shadow, dense and opaque. Whatever I touched, wherever I went, all turned dark; all the light absorbed, nothing emitted gets out. There are no roads, there is no path, not one direction but I walk. The world bled red but why it…

Stay with me.

Would you be my compatriot? We shall sing, we shall dance, we shall talk; turn our faces in disquiet. There’s music, there are drinks, there are people we shall meet; there are sorrows, there is pain, tiny moments of joy taking our breath away. I can wipe your tears, you can dry my eyes; we’ll…

Crow.

“The dead shall rise again” cawed he, resting on my shoulders; always preaching. “The roads to hell go through the heaven, the path to heaven is of thorns and blood” His claws dug deeper, every time I looked away, the voice denser, the further we tread, “lift your head up and show your shame” My…

I get by.

I raised my hand at the sky and closed my fist, pretending to catch the stars. Foolish as it my sound, a weird sense of beatitude crept into my soul, lighting up my insides. A peculiar warmth emboldens the adolescent heart caged inside my dejected adulthood. The unscrupulous skies have a magical way of inspiring…

Light.

You tell me I don’t see it But trust me when I tell you, I see light in everyone; each in their own wavelength. The world is brimming with brightness and hope, sometimes a little too much. You’re so blinded by the lights that you need a little darkness to dim your sight; to see…

Come on in.

I’m thinking of the blues as flowers grow out of the bruise; the rusty old chair sings songs of you. Eyes have shrunk, tears have dried, wrinkles on my skin have stories that hide. Life was bittersweet, people fell like teeth; I wash my hands with a few good deeds; you know, to live is…

A Short letter.

I’ve written about you. What I write are lies but trust me when I tell you; when you’re home, in the darkness, the shadows desert you, the wind carries whispers and the sky ain’t always blue. Would you miss me then? When I don’t have a name anymore, when my body doesn’t walk around, when…

Abyss.

You ask me why I lay here all day, staring into nothingness ? ‘Cuz darling, when everything you believed in loses its meaning, your bleeding heart and shattered faith tell you that this is the closest you can get to dying before you go out and the cycle repeats. It’s a beginning and an ending…

Us.

I think of you everytime My lips bleed My skin yearns for yours Desires, dying to be freed Every inch of my skin Carrying your scars Is a holy Grail made By your fingernails This neck craves for your bite My cave thirsts for your light The sweat reminds me Of our might The bed…

There she descends From the skies Defying all the angels The hell shall rise You're the chosen one Oh don't you dare smile Nothing is deadlier Than a woman With changed intentions Winds change directions Skies bleed emotions All your hopes Are now victims to erosion Don't you look at the skies, There ain't no…

Dear love

As the sun sets, All of my monsters come alive Where have you been, love? I'm a prisoner and they reign Where is hope, love? I search for it again I rot alone and quiver Feeling hands all over All there is, is darkness And a crimson red river For I might drown for our…

Search

On this path, I walk With my head down Avoiding looks and talks Hiding the frown A thousand questions haunt The road I've taken For answers, I hunt Unsure and broken The voice That once calmed My demons Is now gone A part of me, that went Searching for you Was lost and never found…

Fever dream

When all the pain Starts to sink in, A chill surges Through the spine I close my eyes To dying light Nothing but darkness Surrounds me I'm used to these nightmares They can't scare me In this abyss, taking turns Through this madness I run There come the sands of Guilt and pleasure Scorching my…

Her weary eyes Tell me tales, of Laughter and mourning The tears that dried Revealed, She was indeed, drowning Those lips That once donned a smile Hiding behind the wisps Now carry a frown She had no disguise Whatever was left behind Came back to her And she held on tight Queen was she Of…