Please don’t mind me.

I think I could use a pet, Y’know, for petting purposes not because I’m lonely nor do I have other intentions. When I look through the window with the sun splattered all over my dried up face, It feels like a thousand needles piercing through my skin. There are pains that you hate and there…

Opinions.

“Because you love trouble” she said “You’d be nothing without them and your troubles are faithful to you. Even if you have the chance to choose peace, you always end up choosing trouble because it’s easier, more real, accessible. You’re used to it; no surprises, no relying on hope; And this shall pass until the…

Woke

I’ve dreamt for long Of wings, of sins, of air that fills and the voice that sings; for this heart of mine has mourned for long, of words that slipped, of tears spilt and life I’ve lived. Wake me up, stranger, tell me what I missed; if you hear regrets, put me back to sleep.

Leave.

I should’ve been there. I know. It should’ve been my T shirt, not your pillow that soaks up your tears; should’ve been my ears not the walls that hear. The pavement that I sit on isn’t cozy, Y’know.. my face rests in my palms, I’m restless. The stillness of this moment has me perturbed. I…

Garden.

A flower blossomed from the cracks of her skin. Only to wither away before she could blink. Desolation echoed her in her voice; life pale, it had endured pain. The eyes have dried. Emotions had died; of abandonment and famine. There are worms now, crawling into her heart, burrowing into her soul. She had waned,…

Abyss.

You ask me why I lay here all day, staring into nothingness ? ‘Cuz darling, when everything you believed in loses its meaning, your bleeding heart and shattered faith tell you that this is the closest you can get to dying before you go out and the cycle repeats. It’s a beginning and an ending…

Finding a way back.

The usual farmer’s market; people going around, buying vegetables, bargaining and chattering their mouths out. I see men staring at women, I see women exchanging glances. The sky was pale, clouds were scattered and feeble and the sun was about to set. I walked further past children crying for toys, parents covered their eyes, vendors…

Trivial shit.

*Me looking at my crush* Heart: go tell her! Tell her in this flora of life, you're a passionate bee, she's the brightest flower and hers is the sweetest nectar. Mind: don't listen to him. What're you trying to do? Fucking pollinate?? Heart: okay! Fine! Tell her your love for her is like the UV…

The cold closure.

There's a knife through my back Reaching my bleeding heart Leaving behind a crimson trail There's a sword through my mind Creeping up on my weeping soul Where your sweet laughter hails The scar on my arm Singing our story To the vagabond, numb and frail There's a tear on your cheek Watching the world…

Just see

There's this trap, you see When you fall, Can't snap out of it, All those comforting words Do nothing but mislead Why do you look elsewhere When I wait for you right here? Why are you blown away By someone who was never there? When the sweetness wears off, my dear I'm scared you'll be…

Reason

Ever wondered why I came back to you Everytime? To take back what's mine Not love, not hope Not you, not us Not doubt, not remorse It lives in all the scars In my eyes, behind your smile When we're up all night Feel it come again? Embrace it, love, the pain Might leave a…