An old draft 2

I wish I could write a poem for you, darling; I wish I could sing for you but I laugh at that thought because it'd be as fake as our love. You wanted a pastime and I was lonely. Perfect match eh? Probably not. Oh how I hated your giggles! Remember when you laughed out…

One more night.

If only I knew, This would be our last Night together; If only you knew What you said Wouldn't last forever; If only the sun would stay down If only we could have each other right under these covers Wouldn't that be enough, Aren't you the best, ever Wouldn't that be love Forever and ever?…

Well, well, lookie here!

Better late than never, eh? This post is me expressing gratitude which is a rare sight since I'm a thankless twat. One fateful morning, in June 2015, I created a blog which can achieve nothing significant; something that would give me peace. Four years later, here it stands with a thousand followers, baffling my mind.…

Liebster Award.

Here we go again. It's either one award after another (the same ones) or nothing at all (most of the times). WordPress is as strange as life itself. Now to the formalities. Lemme thank this monster of a girl for nominating me. Nour. (sorry for not thanking you). Y'know, Nour can also pronounced as Nowr?…

Liebster Award.

Hi Lobster, uh, Liebster. Long time no see. Let's take a moment to thank Prakriti for nominating me, been quite a while and two seconds of silence of whoever is reading. Let's do this! Eleven facts about myself: I speak three languages like every other person in India does. I took French classes and barely…

Noises.

A fire burns From under my skin Look into my eyes, baby You ready to sin? Sweaty pores, naughty chores Lights so dim We get to work now Let's sing Give wings to my dreams Add silence to my screams And tears to my eyes Don't stop whispering Now nose to nose Ears to teeth…

Welcome to my life

There are ghosts in my closet, I wear them to work There are demons under my bed, I talk them to sleep There's a devil in my past, we're together in the present My dad's shirt fits me, it lies in that wardrobe I look dapper as ever But could never walk in his shoes…

Oh! Please!

10°C How long can you hold your piss when it's that cold? Man! I couldn't even move, I cringed. My vacation at Shimla went great with a few tiring stops here and there, the most irritating of them was holding shit in. Literally. We camped the night before where we did things in a tent…

Note to self

The deeper we look, the shallower we are. No matter how perfect people are, there's always a flaw lurking deep within.Everyone is guilty of something, nobody is free from the consequences. Flaws make us what we are. Let's embrace our flaws. Before we forgive people, let's learn to forgive ourselves.

A boring update

Somedays it feels like you're full of ideas, some nights your brain explodes. Then comes the time when there's absolutely nothing, mind goes blank. I've been trying to write something since two days but couldn't even jot down a sentence. I go here and there, meet a person or two, indulge in an interesting conversation…

Just Morning things

A coffee shop, a book in my hand and a hot cup of coffee on the table is what I always imagine my reading session to be. The movies always have it so perfectly shot that we long to experience things that way. There's a posh coffee shop right beside the stall where I go…

Conversations.

A car blocked our way while we waited for him to come. She was excited since this is the first time she's introducing us to her 'trophy-boyfriend'. It's closed quarters. Anyone who entered the housing quarters were bombarded with questions by security guards and let in only when they uttered a valid name. That took…

Irritation.

Our brain can't focus on two things at once, that's for sure. Or can it? Every other vehicle that passed by seemed like they were dangerously fast. What happened to people? Don't they care for their lives? Then came the red light. Sixty seconds to go green and I grew impatient with each passing second.…

My affirmations.

You only get cheated on when you trust. Backstab happens when there's belief. You only cry when you care. You're always disappointed. When you begin to think life's fair. Who can break your spirit other than the ones who helped you build one? You say you're lonely but so is everybody. We need people when…

Goals and laziness

Been thinking about this since days now and nothing has been done about it. I even borrowed a pair of shoes so that at least that will motivate me, but nah! Making new habits is not an easy job. There are a few hacks for it, tried and tested, never worked on me. So this…

Correction

"Don't bite the bag! Eek! It's disgusting." She was annoyed. "You see that midline there? Grab it and pull both the sides apart to tear it open. That's how you open a bag of chips." Said she, snatching the chips from me. "And don't ever bite the plastic when I'm around. If you do, I'm…

Stupid life

The one thing that we're taught from childhood is "love brings people closer". In every walk of life, I applied the same. My elders always told me never to lose faith in people and always have trust in them. Even though I was selective in trusting, I was still hurt. My teenage years were joyous.…

Lies.

The eyeballs moved left or right when he answered but never never looked straight into my eyes. He was constantly fiddling with something as he spoke and swore often that he's telling the truth. He fumbled at repetitive questions and covering up caused awkward silence. Finally, I knew that I couldn't get any truth out…

Fleeting thoughts.

Embers flew by slowly and the depth of the field grew denser revealing a nostalgic film running in my mind. As I zoomed in on the smoldering, I could feel my emotions buring with desire to desperately turn back time to relive those halcyon days I've spent. I could see myself running free with the…

Rant.

There's this question I get asked everytime someone knows I write a blog: Why do you write? And when I tell them because I want to, they reward me with a pokerface or sometimes an irritated expression as if they expected something more exciting and then, I mean, what motivates you?, to which my answer…